Self Defeat

There is no defeat greater than losing to ones self. I know that we can’t beat our devils at every round, but we can ultimately come out victorious.

I’ve fallen plenty of times to self defeat. And at the time, I didn’t notice the culprit. I was the cause…. I was the one, I marked that defeat into my skin and etched it into my being. It was there because I put it there. Not because I lost.

The one thing I learned over the years and carried with me through the times, was this: Only Kanye, can stop Kanye. And he would never get in his own way, he would NEVER defeat his self. Period.  So what really stops me from carrying the same philosophy? So being optimistic all of the time, or seeing the good in something, doesn’t make me naive.  I just have faith that everything meant for me will work out for the greater good. Even if I have to fight tooth and nail. It would still, ultimately, be mine. If God etched my name into everything created for me, how could I fail? What can really get in my way….?? Besides me..

Don’t get me wrong, the devil tries us. He’ll tap dance on our shoulders hoping that we’ll succumb to the madness, that we’ll just quit right in the midst of reaching our blessings. Would you give someone else the satisfaction of ruining something great? I can’t. Personally? I can’t accept that. Not for myself and definitely not for those close to me.

After a certain point of my life, I was tired of feeling defeated. I was tired of feeling like I was fighting a losing battle. I kept losing, at every attempt… or so I thought. I realized that the way my mind was set up was the problem. Your heart and body listen to your mind… Pay attention to the message you’ve programmed your brain to send.

The Universe will universe. You will get back what you put into it. I try to keep everything I put into the world, positive. Even in some of the worst situations, I learned that sometimes no reaction was best, sometimes praying over the situation was all I could do. Just because there wasn’t an obvious win, didn’t mean that I had lost indefinitely either. Ultimately, everything meant for me, would be mine. I was not forsaken or abandoned. I just had to remember that.

“Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand (Isaiah 41:10).’

This has kept me going. Over the years, my faith has been my driving force. I learned how to sit with God before important interactions. I learned how to keep my faith in the worst of times as well as still praying through the good times. I know that by “stepping by faith and not by sight”, I’m left more vulnerable, I’m left more open. To everything, including failure. But ultimately, I know that I was not created to fail. Yeah, some of the bumps along the road to victory may leave me broken and bruised. But that doesn’t mean that it’s the end. It doesn’t mean that I’ve failed.

Proverbs 17:22 says, “A merry heart does good, like medicine, But a broken spirit dries the bones.”

A bright smile and a happy heart will take you very far. You don’t have to succumb to the negative to know that its there. I know that some may think that finding the positive in everything is foolish, but for me? It has been a saving grace. Being negative kills your hopes and dreams. Eventually, it eats away at the complete essence of who you are. I’ve lost myself enough times in my life to know better.

Failing is not the end of the world. We all have our days, we just have to bounce back. We must keep our heads high and keep the positivity in our hearts. And keep our spirits open to more. Failure isn’t an option. So don’t settle for it. Don’t allow self defeat to end you. You’re better than that. YOU can do wonders.


Love & Light.

God didn’t create me to fail. Instead, HE instilled me with a purpose and passion.

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